Friday, March 13, 2009
{ 3:50 PM }
Y'day Adek my ex b4 Apit kol me to ask about novel. Coz i lend his mom novel and he want me to return back. He ask in a nice way thou. Well den catch up some tings too. Den he ask me wat tyme i finish werk coz he wanna go back 2gther as he's staying near me too. Bud too bad i finish late.
Dis morning he msg me and plan to go to werk with him while he go for reporting. So catch the same train. Wen i saw him my heart was like coming out.. OMG its been a long tyme since i saw him. Miss him so much! While in the train he told me dat he miss me n wanna hug me. At first i refused. Den wen he ask the 2nd tyme i said ok coz i miss him sooo much n wanna hug him too!!! Juz dun wanna let go..Den he kiss my forehead. And dat kiss,he noes its my fav spot. And the way he kiss i can tell he still lurve me like b4. It neva change.The way he kiss is still the same i can still feel it.The feeling is there. OMG!! Den there's dis lady alight at dis station den there's dis one sit n he look at me n i look at him like we noe wat each other is tinkin. Flash back the old tyme, usually wen there's only 1 seat i will sit on him. Haizz... miss the old days.. And finally its tyme for him to alight. He kiss me on my forehead den stroke my hair (belai) juz the way i like it. He reli noes how i like to be treated. Wen he's leaving i juz feel like i dun wanna let him go. I reli miss him soo much. Miss the old days, miss the way he treat me n miss the love from him. Haizz.. I reli dunno wat to do. Im juz too ashamed to face his family n him. I've broke their heart so much.
And wat about Apit?He trying so hard to win my heart back n shows me dat he can change.And hes been good to me since i leave him. God im so confused! Two guys trying to win my heart.Neva been in dis kind of situation b4. Maybe i juz need to gv more tyme.
I noe my frens would be hapi if im wit Adek. I reli need tyme for me to make the decision.
God, show me who's the rite guy for me n will make me hapi and can guarantee my future.
