Thursday, April 9, 2009 { 11:31 AM }

Tuesday, Apit came to my werk place. Begging me not to leave him. Buat kecoh sak kat tempat keje aku. Mcm sial. He stand outside the door until i came out. Tanak malu nye pasal aku terpakse kluar sial. Went to staircase(smoking area), he beg n beg n beg. Stil i try to be strong. Den he punch the wall, hentak kpale kat tembok, nangis2 n kneel down la. WTF sia!! He still keep on begging. Den he snatch my hp coz wanna see if i cntct any guys.. Waliao ko yg buat taik sial aku nye pasal la aku nk cntct sape! Its over btwn us sial! Bkn mcm kau ada pmpn pon maseh cntct pmpn laen! Den he found Thambi(ameerul) no. And guess wat? He wanna punch me bud i shouted at him back and he stop. He kol Thambi and told him dat he's my guy! Asshole!! Kau nk ape lagi sak ngn aku?? Tak puas pe kau sakit kn hati aku? Kau expect ape,aku ddk rumah pk pasal kau je pe sial? Merane mcm org tak btol? Sorry la eh if u're the gd guy den maybe la i'll be like dat bud kau jantan sial tak gune aku mcm tu. Aku blh dpt laki lagi baek la. And guess wat, he ask me to tel Thambi dat im back wit him n ask Thambi not to cntct me animore. Please la eh!! Was so fucking pissed off sia and i juz walk off like dat n i have to stay in the meeting room so he cant see me. MENYUSAHKAN IDOP AKU SIAL! Finally he go off. Called Thambi n explain everything. Kau da malu kn aku sak Apit! Pasal mulot kau nanti si Thambi ingt aku pmpn ape sak. Bud lucky he understood.
Before i knock off from werk, he's already at the lobby waiting for me! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! He said he wanna settle dis. There's notin to settle la Apit its over! He said no matter wat he wont let me go n im still his gerl. AAARRRGGH!! Sukeati kau la aku tahu aku ngn kau da tkda pape. Aku nk buat ape, nk g mane,ngn sape tu sume aku nye pasal! N u dun have the rite to controll me wat to do! Im not ur puppet or dog! N im not a slave for u! DAMN U ASSHOLE! Kau nk njoy sngt kan ar g la. Kan senang da takya nk tpu2 or tkt2. G la njoy puas2 ngn kwn ko si dahi cap nonok tu! Asl kau nk blek ngn aku?Asl nk kacau idop aku? Nanti kalo aku da blek ngn kau, ape kau buat lagi? Sori la eh too many chances la n ENUF of ur fucking swit talks n promises!! Den he make me sit in his lorry. And drove off. N worst he follow me till my house! He said he wanna clep over! Tak malu pe kau sak.aku tak ajak nk tdo rumah aku.Kau bkn aku nye guy tau ko nk tdo rumah aku. Since he dun wanna get out of my house i didn't let him clep on my bed.
Fuck la Apit, pls dun make tings difficult for me la..Da cukop la kau sakitkn hati aku.. Aku ada prasaan sak.

As usual stil pestering me bud im trying to stay strong...Ouh God please gv me the strength..
Apit if u wanna make tings up prove to me u can reli change n den dat cn take into consideration. Not like dis. Even if i didn't go back to u juz change n be a good guy to ur next gerl.

Im juz sick n tired of dis love game..